brown

Hye there. This becoming Aidilfitri, I'd decided to wear the brown baju kurung and had told Mr.Apik about it. however, yesterday my sis found out the pics of him with the girl and she asked me about it. To be honest, it hurts me to face the truth that now, everybody knows bout it,especially my family. 

So last evening, I'd told him that I don't want to proceed with the ideas anymore ;

"tak perlu dah cari kaler coklat. dah tak ada apa-apa makna"

and he asked me why, so I tell him everything. Before this, my sis only know about the girl but not the pics. But now, she knew everything and tell you what, pics tells the story better than speaks.

then he said ;

"dah kalau macam tu suka hati b lah"

and since then,he didn't contact me anymore. and I guess, he maybe had made up his mind on moving on and proceed with the girl. And yes, I cried a lot thinking of it. 

but this afternoon, we'd contact each other and I asked him why he didn't respond to my text and he said ;

"abang kecik hati b cakap tak nak pakai sama. abang usaha cari baju raya untuk sama kaler. sekarang pun tengah cari lagi."

and now I really don't know what should I feel. Seriously it was our routine on every Aidilfitri to wear the same colour of baju kurung and baju melayu. So I guess maybe both of us can't stop on doing that routine. but somehow I tend to think that he maybe just want to be nice to me, or being like 'jaga hati' and the truth is he's not willing to do it at all. That's what I'm thought.

So now, what is it actually ? Is it a sign that he still have the same feeling or he's just wanna be nice to me and "menjaga hati".