A Shoulder That I Need.

Well, just finished watch Lee Chong Wei versus Lin Dan for the gold medal match in London Olimpic 2012. But sadly, we just manage to won silver medal. And its okay, he's still my hero.

Move to another story, after saw the sadness in his face, I wonder, if i were him, except for my family and friends, who else that i need to comfort myself ?

Since the last time we broke up until now, every time I'm sad, I still, holding my tears back, and cry myself alone in the bathroom. Every time I need someone to talk to, I just pretend to talk to you alone, in my room. That way, I feel relieve. 

So I think, I really need a shoulder to cry on. I need a special someone to comfort me. Maybe not now. I can wait another 3-4 years.

Well, just saying.

The Girl Who Can't Break Up, The Boy Who Can't Leave

[Note : A sad song by LeesSang]

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

Anywhere together in a 3000 dollar used car
Without a care in the world
Linking arms, committing memories in a photo
Understanding each other in our sleepless nights
My dreams became your future
A pair of beautiful birds chasing each other
A love I could never get enough of
A person I want to meet when reborn
But in front of this thing called time
We can’t win against our greed
Sounds of your tears alone in the bathroom
The suspicious gazes focused on me
As the days go by I think of breaking up again

The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

I’m so busy that I feel guilty
I fill my wallet with money and make some time
Even though I don’t express my love
When I have dinner and watch a movie with you
I hope you might feel better but
I continue to be in debt to my thoughts
As I walk and tease you
it’s all a played out game
Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Hearbreak takes love and goes away.

The sun is hot but your heart is frozen
Whose fault is this? But I love you baby
Everything else is the same but we changed
Whose fault is this? I still love you baby

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

Love is passing,
Love and heartbreak are one and the same
Hearbreak takes love and goes away. (x2)

How nice would it be if love
was something that could be earned?
(It’s all a dream, holding your hand)
How nice would it be
if love was something to get by wanting it?
(It’s all a dream but I can’t escape)

The girl who can’t say good bye
The boy that can’t leave
The two of us are no longer in love
So no no no no no no (x2)

Are men caught in love done so because of weakness?
Are men starved of love not worthy of it?
Are men that keep secrets bad men?
Why is it that love changes?

everything by heart.

[Note : Written on 13 July 2012]

Sad but true.
Ourselves,
We try to forget,
We try to hate,
We try to run away,
We try to ignore,
But everything are connected by heart.

Our memory,
We remember everything by heart.
We can't help ourselves to forget.

May the time heals the wound.
May the time covers the holes.
May the time brings someone new.

But if everything are by heart,
How do we move on ?

Heart,
Listen well,
You are now,controlling everything.
Please, let me take over.
I'd bring up myself to this level,
I'll take the challenge.
And I'll settle the rest.

Broadband.

Masalah betul kalau takde internet kan ? Selama ni aku guna internet untuk bersuka ria, ber-emel dengan Abang Ameer, tengok pakwe pakwe kacak di Youtube. So agak terasa macam langit runtuh bila sim broadband rosak tempoh hari.

Disebabkan kekangan final exam, aku tangguhkan dulu repair, sudahnya sekarang, broadband SKMM aku dah tak boleh guna. Dengan rajinnya aku pergi Celcom Center untuk activate balik broadband Celcom dengan plan lama. Haihh, mau sakit hati, dah tak unlimited dah. Tapi takpe lah, asalkan ada lagi internetnya. Well, sejak berputus kasih dengan dunia siber ni, aku memang betul-betul hidup macam zombie. Pastu mula lah, terkenang kisah lama. Bodoh. Teringat orang yang dah tak ingat kita. Memang bodoh. Tapi sebab bodoh tu lah, kita rasa pengalaman macam ni.

Hahaha. Merepek betul kan ? Well, semenjak bosan takde internet ni, banyak benda yang aku taipkan dalam Microsoft Word untuk aku publish di blog. So, nanti akan aku publishkan dari masa ke semasa.

Till then, Love you.

normal life is all I want.

Well, it seems like now, I can live on my own, no more "him" inside my mind. Haha. But actually, he always be there. 

Okay, to be frank, I'm tried so hard to live like a normal. I mean, to enjoy life even without someone special. Thank to my friends, which majority of them are single, we still can have a normal life. Hangout, watch movie, sharing jokes and sad moments together which most people spend it with their loves one.

Now, as I trying harder to be like a normal one. I enjoy everything I do and never regret any decision I made. Ouh well, I becomes stronger each day and now, I manage to ignore all texts and calls from my ex as I remind myself that he is nothing compare to everybody I had beside me.

Not to forget, I have my family who always support me. In any kind of situation I had, they never turn me down. They always have the X-factor that always made up my day and night.

Well everybody, thank you. You had given a huge contribution in order to help me get a normal life. Love you all.

xoxo, Meera.