another holiday.

Oh well, this semester, there's lots of looooong holiday for us. Last month we had our semester break and now, we had our Gawai and Menuai holiday. 

The holiday starts on 25th and will end on 3rd June. And, at the end of the month, I'll sit for my final exam. Wohooooo. Lots of holidays and end up like hell. I mean, not prepared at all. Still have lots of chapters to be finish and lots of assignment to be submit.

Oh God, please help me. 

a very sweet moment.

Well, it has been a while since I last wrote. I'm quite busy and my internet connection getting worse. Well, I wanted to share a very sweet moment happened to me just now.

Okay first, I want to introduce my friend, Sham. He's a singer and a programmer to be. He has a great voice and he always sing to me whenever we had free time. And tonight, he entertain me. Well, I'm kinda sad and lonely and now, he's in front of me, singing good words and make me smile.

Nah, some print-screen shot.

Well, he sang lots of song tonight but not to forget, our remarkable song, Dewi. Thanks Sham. You make me smile :)

new me in the making.

Alhamdulillah, aku masih lagi mampu bernafas sampai hari ni. Walaupun sangat-sangat busy sampaikan tak sempat nak update blog, aku masih lagi ingat kat cik blog. So cik blog jangan sedih-sedih.

Okay, about the title. Actually it has been a few days since I started my healthy lifestyle. I've been on healthy diet in about a week and will continue this. After tons of leteran from my mom, I decided to give a try on the diet. I mean, make some exercise and control my eating habit. I realized that I must do something to be different like before. 

Before this, I always pray to God so that I wake up in the morning and become someone new and I can go out and look for another happiness in me. Until I had a deep thought on my last broken relationship, which is I had to become someone new to prove to him that I can go further by myself. Luckily I got friends who understands me and give me courage.

Since last week, I've been controlling my eating habit, check out the nutrition content before eat any products and eat in small amount. Yes, I've been comfortable to do so and I will continue as long as it do not affect my health. And a few days back then, I started to have a regular exercise. I mean, jogging in order to sweat myself. 

Firstly, it is very difficult for me as I had no stamina at all but after a few times, I think nothing can stop me for being healthy. Seriously, I want to become health and beautiful. 

It is one of my dream, to become gorgeous and walk in front my ex so he would regret of what he did to me. *evil laugh* And I keep on my mind that if I achieve a healthier lifestyle, I deserve a better person ( I mean, much more handsome and much more care of me). 

And well, I think I had found someone. I mean, its not that I'm totally in love with him. It is just that, he can cheer up my life and give me strength when I'm alone. Well, thank you so much, that you made up my day with your "good morning" texts and brought me sweet dreams all night long with your warm "good night" wishes. But liking somebody doesn't mean that I love that guy. It is just I feel appreciated with all those actions.

And people, I think I had to go. Still had lots of works to settle and I will write as soon as I can. Till then, Good Bye.

end of holiday.

Sedar tak sedar,esok aku akan bergerak balik ke Jengka tercinta. rasanya lama kot cuti aku tu,tapi kenapa sudahnya,rasa macam sekejap. 

Oh ya, apa yang aku buat sepanjang cuti ni. Nak tahu ? Well,boleh kira berapa hari je aku keluar. 1st day aku sampai, dan tadi,last day sebelum aku balik. 1st day tu aku pergi karaoke dengan adik aku. Biasa lah,dah lama tak hangout dengan adik. Dan tadi, aku keluar dengan kawan-kawan. 

Mulanya aku keluar sorang aje, pergi beli barang nak bawak balik Jengka. Then pergi karaoke, juge keseorangan. Tapi ada sorang kawan, nak join. Mulanya memang plan, tapi dia ada hal. But Alhamdulillah, berjaya jugak dia sampai temankan aku. Sempat lah duet 2-3 lagu dengan dia. Thanks ye Sham ! Next time kita keluar lagi.

And then, aku balik around 3.30pm. Lepak-lepak and sorang lagi kawan aku ajak keluar. Dia ni kawan dari sekolah dulu. Parents dia kawan dengan parents aku. Dah lama sangat tak jumpa. Memang dah lain. So,kami just lepak kat Pantai Batu Buruk, makan goreng-goreng celup tepung sambil cerita hal masing-masing. Thank ye Asyraf Shahrin, sebab belanja aku. Next time kite lepak lagi.

So macam tu,berakhirlah cuti aku kali ni. Next holiday at the end of May,aku balik kampung lagi. So hopefully nanti cuti aku tu,banyak lagi lah benda lain yang boleh aku buat.

Well,its time to pack things. Esok kena drive,so nak kena tidur awal. Doakan perjalanan aku. Bye.

luar kasar tapi hati suci.

Aku terfikir nak tulis tentang luaran kasar tapi hati baik ni sebab lately ni,kebiadapan aku dan kroni-kroni makin menjadi-jadi. Entah kenapa, semua benda nak di-babi dan di-kimak. semua benda nak dicarutkan. Macam dah jadi bualan biasa pulak. Haha. Kalau yang tak berkenan tu sila lah pangkah window eh. 

Ni aku nak cerita, entah kenapa terbit dalam hati, ada ke orang nak pandang perempuan kasar ni ? Ekceli, tak semua yang kasar ni akan berterus-terusan kasar. Kami awek-awek kasar ni sebenarnya ada dalaman yang manja.Cuma manja kami dengan orang tertentu. Sebab itu aku tulis kat bio, kadang-kadang aku ini gedik mengada-ngada.

Aku tak nak ambil contoh jauh, aku just contohkan diri aku. Aku asalnya tidaklah semanja atau sekasar mana. Sedang-sedang saja cuma bila berkawan,kasar itu satu chemistry. Kalau tak kasar, tak mesra katanya. "Babi" "Bangang" "Bodoh" "Sial" memang dah agak sebati. Namun begitu (cehh,macam essei BM), ada jugak waktunya aku lagi suka bermanja. Aku cuma bermanja dengan keluarga aku. Ibu,Ayah,Adik,Abang, dan sedara mara lain. Rasanya memang mereka tahu,ada waktunya aku macam singa,dan ada waktunya aku macam budak kecil. Aku juga akan suka bermanja dengan orang-orang yang aku sayang. Dengan buah hati (oh,ex okay),dengan kawan-kawan rapat dan dengan teman-tapi-mesra. 

Ada yang mungkin pelik,kalau satu ketika aku macam kasar tapi selepas satu ketika,aku manja. Tak payah pelik okay. Tu memang sifat semulajadi aku. Aku punya manja, orang tertentu aje boleh rasa.

Oh berbalik pada topik, rasanya spesis pakwe-pakwe pun tak nak awek-awek ni 100% manja kan ? mesti nak ada variasi sikit kan ? So,tak pelik lah perangai kami-kami ni kan ? So,apa lagi ? Saya memang single ni. Hahaha. 

Sometimes kita tengok orang manja ni,kita fikir dia baik. Orang kasar ni,kita fikir dia teruk. Tapi mostly aku kena, yang kasar itu sebenarnya baik dari yang manja. Yang manja dan malu malu kucing ini sebenarnya banyak selit perasaan yang kita tak tahu. Ada yang nampak baik dan tawadduk, tapi kat belakang macam anak setan. Pendiam tapi perangai boleh tahan merenyam. Dan sebetulnya bila kita kasar,kita cenderung untuk berkata-kata benar. Kita suka open minded. Nak cakap benda-benda sensetif pun senang. 

Its not like aku mempromosikan diri aku supaya orang cakap aku baik,that other person jahat,this girl baik,that boy jahat,that boy bagus and this girl macam cilaka. Tak ! Its just aku nak remind, seseorang punya dalaman,tak semestinya sama macam yang kita nampak luaran. So,don't judge a book by its cover okeh ?

Kalau tak kasar,rimas pulak kan ?

Kalau tak manja, tak sweet pulak kan ?

Kalau separuh-separuh ?

Terbaekk lah kan ?

Ok. Tu je sebenarnya. Nak merepek panjang pasal perangai manusia. Assalamalaikum :)